We have 25 questions coming our way.
I may not have perfect answers, it'll just be what comes to mind. Feel free to play along in the comments....not about me, about you... ☺
Question #1: What is the hardest thing you've ever done?
Things that come to mind:
- Fighting the seemingly never ending battle called depression...
- Natural childbirth. Three times.
- Move when I was 14. 15. 16. Again multiples times as an adult and doing that to my daughters...being new sucks.
- Various family situations.
- Showing up when I'd rather do anything but.
But, I think...and perhaps it's because of all the different things that poured into it... I think the hardest thing I've ever done was telling my daughters that their father was dead.
Because I knew as soon as those words were out of my mouth their lives would change.
I knew that they would never go back to how it was a second before.
I knew that opportunities would be gone from them.
I knew that mourning is absolute hell and the process takes years and years and then it's still a part of you. I know the empty spot in my soul that won't be filled until I see my parents again.
I knew this would bring back a world full of emotions and memories...wishes and hopes...
And...because, even though these are three self-sufficient adults, they are still my babies.
Hardest thing I've ever done.
I did it. But it took everything I had. And then to leave them a few weeks later, when all I wanted was to stay and be there for them. Be able to watch over them and see with my own eyes how they were doing.
I've had more than a boatload of hardest things in my life thus far. I'll have more. Hardest things suck. But we survive. Even if we need to climb in bed for a few days. We survive.