I've been meaning to blog more...
There was a great talk given on Sunday. I'm new here, so I'm watching people...figuring out who is who...etc. This particular man in the branch presidency was talking...he was talking about, "Why is it so hard sometimes?"
He said that as a Mormon culture, we're not secretive...but we have a culture to be private.
And we might want to stop that.
Because everyone has difficulties.
And life is difficult.
And why are things one way for some and another way for others.
And why does it seem to be easier for some?
And what is with life's twists and turns?
And when we're wondering about why it's so difficult in life, later on, we can look back and see some of the reasoning and gifts we got from the struggles.
Then he shared some of his thoughts/feelings/experiences...it was great.
Which brings me to meaning to blog more...
Because I have been struggling.
I am well aware of it. I'm trying to be more proactive on a few fronts... I'm working on taking better care of myself... I'm working on doing less of the "shoulds" and "oughts" and "have tos" that make me miserable and hurt...especially in the instances where no one else seems to be terribly concerned with my well-being... I'm trying. Those first times saying, "No. More." are difficult and draining, but liberating and less stressful.
And I appreciate so much the people that support me.
And I appreciate so much the people who are good examples to me.
And I appreciate so much the people who know, listen, advise, and then cheer me on when I make baby steps.
So. I am aware. I am working on it. And I need to blog anyway.
Last night was balm to my soul.
It wasn't raining...so I asked Doug if he wanted go to the water.
He mostly didn't, he was tired...but he was aware of the non-raining status so he said yes.
I put on shoes and socks (that's how much i love going to the water...i'll wear shoes and socks), grabbed my jacket and off we went.
We meandered through town...talked about what we'd seen that day...the plus tide from earlier...things we're learning (like, the eagles are busy with their babies...we haven't seen them for a few weeks, it is ODD!!! and i miss them terribly)... Found a great spot to park our hineys and it was just good spending time with him.
Then some more meandering through town and we went to this house we keep looking at...trying to figure out how to make it ours (they want WAY too much for it)... No one is there, and we've been by enough that I wasn't scaredy cat and I led the way to one of the back decks and we hung out there. Looking at the view...talking about what he'd (i could pretend and say 'we', but...we all know it'd be him doing it, so...give credit where credit is due...) do to the "backyard"...
Taking some shortcuts home, we ran into a man that I enjoy seeing around town. He always salutes or directs me as I drive past. He stopped at the top of this path we were taking, which was kind of creepy in the dark...that's what horror movies are made of...just seeing a tall man's silhouette standing at the top of a tree lined path you're on? (he's not creepy...the situation was...)
I said, "Hi!" when I got to the top, he said hi back...then looked at me and asked how I was and it's been years since he saw me! I smiled...asked him how he was... He and Doug exchanged pleasantries...brief work and weather comments...
As we walked on, I grinned at Doug...told him I "forgot" that we'd made friends back in 2006...
AND...I don't think I got a single bug bite!
That's a miracle...they usually eat me up.
Anyway. It was a great night.
I needed it.
Great night last night...got quite a few things crossed off my "To-Do" list yesterday...
I can take a few more of those kind of days...so far this morning brings good news and quite possibly the best picture texted ever, so...here's hoping...